July 2010
1 post
BP Gulf Oil Spill: Worst Environmental Disaster;...
As we all know the oil spill is turning out to be one of the worst offshore spills this world has ever seen; it is gushing out millions of gallons of essential crude oil resulting in an outrageous drilling moratorium backed by the Barack Hussein administration; the explosion killed eleven workers, injured dozens, and supposedly caused one man to commit suicide; and the current administration is...
May 2010
1 post
April 2010
3 posts
I am God’s creation; I thank Him for my unique creation. I know in my heart that He has bestowed a purpose in me, and I am to fulfill His work by following His ways to flourish; He possesses my heart, mind, body, and soul. When I stand before Him I will be able to say, “Yes Lord, I have sinned; I accept Jesus Christ in my heart and believe that he died for my sins. I have embraced...
“I’m making amends; life is too short to not do right by the people you...”
Books I Need To Pick Up...
1. Chelsea Handler - Chelsea Chelsea Bang Bang
2. Michelle Malkin - Culture of Corruption: Obama and His Team of Tax Cheats, Crooks, and Cronies
3. Glenn Beck - Glenn Beck’s Common Sense: The Case Against an Out-of-Control Government
4. Sean Hannity - Conservative Victory: Defeating Obama’s Radical Agenda
5. Timothy Beal - Biblical Literacy: The Essential Bible Stories...
March 2010
4 posts
“You like the chase but hate me for the run around.”
“I’m scared to death I won’t be able to do it; I’m afraid I...”
“I’m going to focus on me, and I’m going to change all for the...”
I try to make sense of this life I live; I try to simplify the mass that overbears. I have no direction, and it doesn’t make much sense. There’s no use, because there is no changing his ways. I’d be better off cutting strings and accepting the loss and moving on with my life with my head still high.
February 2010
7 posts
Love is strange; it makes me do odd things. Love knocks down walls. Walls I’ve worked hard to build up. Love means vulnerability. I never asked for it. I wish I knew how to make it stop. Love is never giving up although sometimes I’d like nothing more.
“Should I get bad or sad, who knows? Just take it all as a sign that we’re...”
My life and all that I’ve known for the past year just fell apart and I’m only thinking about how I can breathe again.
I have better things to do than worry about you, so I’m going to keep on walking. I have a life I can put back together on my own, I’ve tuned you out, but you can keep on talking. For the first time in awhile, I don’t really feel like crying....
If I can’t sleep, there’s no way to rest assure that this nightmare has come to a halt. If there’s no closure, there’s no sure way of coping. When the lines of communication and cohabitation are still in tact, there’s no easy way of breaking free and starting new with a clean slate. I do this to myself, I let myself hurt knowing that there maybe greener grass on the...
“I want to fall back together for a change.”
Eventually I will: 1. Quit smoking. 2. Get over David. 3. Start dating again. 4. Finish my first semester of college. 5. Visit Iowa. 6. Find a job. 7. Be happy. 8. Dream without nightmares. 9. Find a reason to get out of bed in the morning.
For the time being, I’ll have to make it work with smoking cigarettes, thinking about David, going to classes, not being able to be...
January 2010
7 posts
“he cheated on me without a reasonable doubt.”
I can pick up the pieces and put myself back together. The fear has escaped my senses, and I’m still standing. The shadow has left my side, but I’m still here. I asked and received an answer; there’s no turning back now.
At times I want to tear it all down, strip, cut, disassemble, and shut down. Sometimes I want to curl into a ball and just cry, hold onto my knees and close my eyes. Pick apart these lies, they layer your lips.
Many are his actions that I detest. Sometimes sliding down a slope so steep you can hear the brakes screech and scream. I hold ground, he holds my hand. Many are the nights filled with arguments and hearsay that seem unending and unresolved. While we sleep, our unconscious heals our conscious and as we lay, we forgive. We forget. Many are the days we say we’re done. We can no longer...
Could you imagine world peace? The utter perfection would consume us much like a black hole.
Find the man I fell in love with, because surely he’s not standing in front of me with an over-night bag promising to be faithful but refusing to come home.
December 2009
1 post
It’s bad, and I’m sad.
November 2009
1 post
The truth about the truth is that it hurts, so we...
September 2009
12 posts
We, as humans, as creations of a higher power, or from science, biological, genetic makeup are programmed like modern technology to react and respond in universal codes.
If you only knew how much I cry.
Bruises oh bruises. I sing blues. I should be a veteran by now, but I’m barely a novice.
Is there an undo button? Didn’t think so.
Good friends are hard to come by, hold onto the ones you have, and let them know it every once in awhile. Everyone else is just a piece of litter on the side of the street, the wind will eventually blow them away.
Overwhelmed.
What is it about you that is so amazing?
Random Thoughts
- Stole the idea from you.
- This relationship won’t be easy, we’re going to have to work at it every day.
- I have a headache from hell that won’t go away.
- Being jobless is boring, but I’d rather be bored than working a job I don’t enjoy.
- I’m broke and I need money.
- I need to start applying for schools in North Carolina.
- I want to go volunteer,...
August 2009
12 posts
It’s more than just the sex for me.
Small country mentality thinking big city thoughts.
How can I say I’m not going anywhere when you’re not here with me to begin with?
I'm fall apart
meanzypeanzy:
I’m still not happy, and it’s just not funny anymore.
I see people fall apart day by day, and when I look in the mirror I see I’m falling too.
I’m going to find a way to tell you I love you, or that I’m leaving you. The more than typical extreme for me.
“People change so you can learn how to let go. Things go wrong so you can...”
Night falls heavy on this day, I couldn’t tell the difference, between what I knew it to look like now.
July 2009
1 post
The road I walk is never easy. I will not allow myself to get distracted by the words and wisdom of those around me who simply try too hard to put themselves in my shoes. These conversations serve as constant reminders to reality check my perspective and stay true to my own instincts. One day at a time. I feel hopeful. I feel something powerful within. Above all, I feel passion. Love is not...